I'm in Newport, WA, attempting to logon to my LogoTV account, to add an entry to RuPaul's Dragrace Fantasy Team, the one I created called, "SoylentPINK," to update my free-expressions under the discussion I started, called, "Chewed 'n Glued." After entering LogoTV's website addy, I get a message that says the site is blocked (censored) due to 'inappropriate content.'
I asked the librarian. "It's about the kids!"
Afraid they'll be EXPOSED to GAY people, I asked?
RuPaul?
Me?
I asked who do I get 'permission' from, and was told it's pointless, there isn't even a 'complaint form' or 'complaint department.' "How convenient," I exclaimed, "Don't they know what is going on in the Egypt over censoring internet content? Isn't free speech more important than their petty prejudices?"
It's outrageous.
And these people wonder why citizens take up arms and start shooting Legislators, hiding dissent, calling anybody that disagrees 'mentally disturbed,' just like Ahmedinijad of Iran. They'll say anything that 'sounds-reasonable' as they prove HATE, then substitute-blame anything and anybody else as a diversion from their bigotry.
So, instead of entering my latest entry about RuPaul's Dragrace, my Fantasy TEAM called, "SoylentPINK," I will continue the discussion I started, called, "Chewed 'n Glued," here in my blog, and copy/paste it over to LogoTV's link-through to Ffarazzi dot com, later. (Maybe I should fly to Iran? Not even CHINA censors LOGOTV internet content, for cryin' out loud!)
I think it's very typical of Obama-style 'leadership' -- all LIP-SERVICE, no substance.
So, here is my latest entry. I made notes while sitting at Jammer's bar in downtown Priest River, ID., last night, while watching a hockey game and Final Score, an ESPN presentation (I wonder when those 'hooligans' will be censored for 'contributing to global warming by melting ice!')
Here goes:
This one's for you, Miss Freedom Rights Kaine:
Fan Meal 'n Sushi Heals"Well, what I heard was ..."
"Stop!" I said. "Just stop. It's a viscious lie. Everything you are saying is to denigrate that performer right there -- that one -- in the pathetic attept at making yourself-out to 'look' or 'feel' SUPERIOR. And that performer, "'Miss Thang'" to you, is Miss Freedom Rights Kaine, who for damned sure isn't spreading rumors talking shit about you, and never forget it."
I snapped my fingers and 'sashayed away,' chuckling, I'm easy-going, but I was irritated by it.
I think they're just jealous because I said I was fond of him, MissFree. They'd say the same about anyone, and have, I'm sure. Speak highly of someone, and they chew you up for it. Say you love someone, they hate you for it. If they make someone squirm, they laugh, make someone upset, they laugh even harder. It's SADISTIC.
I heard the same crap about Shangela, just because I said he's the cutest and has the beest demeanor and should win RuPaul's Dragrace.
It wasn't long before they were focusing their gossip on me, just because I'd defended Drag Queens, not any one in particular, but defended, instead of chewed-up as they do. I defend, they ridicule and scorn.
Even among some, emphasis on 'some', Drag Queens, they are so used to hearing crap, double-pointed tongues, tongues of serpeants, they are inclined to interpret compliments as "flattery-with-designs," the motivation being fucking 'em, cheating on their boyfriends or wifes, cheating on someone, turning 'em into CHEAP TRICK s to relegate to a hidden past that's lied about.
I'm none of that, and recommend to any and all not to get played into it. Or you become
FAN MEAL. Doesn't matter if it's Drag Queens or neighbors, co-workers or family, it makes you feel chewed-up, consumed by subtle hatreds, tainting your natural optimistic reality of life -- then it's up to you to glue yourself back together again ...
"...with a little help from your friends ..." -- and that lyric should be ammended to include "aquaintances" (like me, and maybe, someday, some how, some way, YOU, whomever 'you' may be.)
What I like about Yara on RuPaul's Dragrace
IS that sassy Latin persona. Meanwhile, the jelaous (I keep misspelling that, oh well) -- the jealous ridicule and scorn him for it. Keep up the good work, Yara.
People that I've worked with and even relatives and some 'friends' refer to Drag Queens as "it's." They thought they'd tease me, all in 'good fun' (to them), saying things like, "How could you be attracted to it!?"
I explained that people are NOT 'its.'
They get red in the face and fake smiling, spouting versions of the old Puritanical argument that a 'he' is a 'he' and a 'she' is a 'she' so everything else is an 'it.'
I quoted Carmen from RuPaul's Dragrace (was it Carmen?) what I like about Carmen best, (was it Carmen? Hmmm ...) and said, "If you want to see REAL GIRLS, GO TO THE MALL," chuckling.
Then, after a bit more discussion, they obfuscated their original derogatory remarks and hateful attempts at denying it, by saying they were not referring to the person (RuPaul, MissFreedom, Yara, Drag Queens, etc.,) as "its" but the situation, then tried acting all "offended" , accusatory, like I was the one being 'hateful' for 'accusing' them of such a thing. "How could you be attracted to it! As in the situation!"
These people will say anything. They don't think too quickly. Like I was born yesterday. Good heavens! I wasn't about to get involved in a 'he-said, she-said' squabble, only to get played-into that mindphukery trap of them concocting an excuse to claim I am "so argumentative!" and "unreasonable/crazy", afterwards only to go talk crap about me to everyone they know as a diversion from me calling 'em out on their prejudice.
Diversity is like Sushi. An aquired taste, perhaps. That heals. Ancient. Healthy. Nourishing.
I wonder if MissFree is listening? Has heard MY WORDS? I don't have a 'goal' for watching his performances. It's not a sexual motivation. Although I know that if I said it was, I'd get chewed, "How could you be attracted to IT?" -- which is derogatory towards Miss Freedom Rights Kaine, denigrating both of us. I'm not a sexually-motivated persona, regardless, and I'm sure his motivations for performing aren't sexually-motivated either. Obviously.
-- Detroit 4, Florida 3 -- Final Score -- (Like I said, I was taking notes while watching a hockey game)
RuPaul knows about those kinds of things, what I just wrote about. Sometimes I wonder if his contestants do -- or, as Viveca says, "cUntestAnts," due to some nastiness, bad mouthing, the stuff I've mentioned. And that's one of the best performers ever, Viveca (sp?), distanced by all the chewing, tiring of all the glueing.
Viveca is as pretty as Shangela, but Shangela is cuter. Viveca has the presence of mind to at least strive to rise above the bitchy chewing. But one thing about the nasty's, it's contagious, and Drag Queens have a tendency to out-do one another, both in costumes, performance, bitchy remarks, even bed, distancing the audience in the process. I'm inclined to think so, anyway. Prove me wrong, please.
Sushi heals.
One thing about the Fan Meal base is the diversity. All the 'cute boys' and cute Asian women. A straight/gay mix of healing delight. Not all Asians like Sushi, of course, but the historic biases continues, subtly, against 'gays,' against Latinos, blacks, Indians, Native or Asian, the fan-base always gets turned into Fan Meal, so these demographics are always "special guests" welcomed with open-arms at Drag Shows. I love seeing Asian women at the clubs. Wish there were more.
There's no such thing as 'gay bars' anymore, just bars that don't discriminate, where some of the people (not "it's!") that go there happen to be 'gay' -- or 'gay-ish' -- ('gay' is just another LABEL).
Sushi Heals, indeed.
And guys like MissFree are freely excercising their rights, and I love, to my last breath, defending that freedom.
Some of these people I've talked about, think that if they watch RuPaul's Dragrace, or LogoTV, or go to a bar where there might be some 'gay people,' or 'drag queens,' that other people might think ...
... That's how self-absorbed they are; how fearful; petty; can't even excercise their freedoms without getting played-into other peoples' assumptions, as they imagine it in their own heads, guilt by association, free-associations used as psychological weapons against each other, too inhibited to exercise their freedom, their rights; that insecure and lieing about it, the REAL definition of "In The Closet," which has nothing to do with 'gayness.'
These are the people that speak with the double-pointed tongues of serpeants, SNAKES, and using those double-pointed tongues as NAILS, they hammer one 'jesu' Drag Queen after another as a 'negative' against their merciless positive-cross-signs in their hateful positiveness; learning the words from church but missing the point of the entire 'christ' concept in that hateful positiveness.
=- "Must be positive-minded!" they feverishly chant night and day, subliminally reinforcing the 'nasty's', as though it's a 'good thing,' and not brainwashing.
I devoted years of my life to those who were POSITIVE, many succumbing to HIV/AIDS. I volunteered at my own time and expense, meanwhile, I got fired from my job, accussed of displaying POSITIVE-symptoms of "gayness," told that the workforce was made to FEEL "uncomfortable" knowing that being in the presence of a 'gay' would possibly make them POSITIVE.
I don't have HIV. I'm negative. And they can take their two-dimensional, negative/positive tiny-minded ways of thinking, that hateful formula of dividing, of intolerance, that brainwashing Fan Meal and regurgitate IT and ITs themselves.
I'll take Drag Queens over that any day.
I'll watch LogoTV over that, any day.
I'll watch RuPaul's Dragrace over that, any day.
Fan Meal 'n Sushi Heals, indeed.
They don't know what real self-esteem is. If you've got it, they LABEL you as 'negatives,' any excuse to teach each other how to be INTOLERANT, subtly, and censor DISSENT. Like this: " Now that we've taught you to be 'positive', here's the list of 'negative people' to HATE, to cast-out as 'not your kinds of people,' to AVOID, to deny equal pursuits of opportunities, life, liberty and happiness, or at least HINDER it.
That's what I love about MissFree and RuPaul's Dragrace, LogoTV and the gay-community as a whole, I have the freedom to at least fantasize through this RuPaul Fantasy Dragrace, SoylentPINK, -- FANmealTASIZE -- that MissFree hasn't succumbed to that 'negative/positive' brainwashing, or at least is striving to overcome it.
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" ... and god almighty in his unconditional love so hated his creations he cursed 'em with dark skin to punish innocent children for the deeds of the parents!"And the moral of that biblical story is obviously HowNotToBe -- not how-to-be, but how NOT to.
Of course, those 'positive-minded' people walked away from church learning the wrong message about that as well.
Go see a Drag Show.
Watch some LogoTV.
Spend some time at a so-called 'gay bar'; learn some real tolerance and prove it; prove your acceptance of diversity and make some new friends/aquaintances.
Sure, you might get chewed, turned to Fan Meal, But now you know how to glue yourself back together again. Make Miss Freedom Rights Kaine proud of you as I am of he.
Just remember, Sushi heals.
Kind Regards,
Clayton Winton
